A "stellar" week so far

With sarcasm.

My past personal issues with the former co-worker (over what she had said to me almost three years ago re: Annie) already got me in "trouble" on Monday. The first day. Mind you, I didn't say anything to that person at all, she had been speaking loudly, in her strident, grating way, at me about something. (In my books that's ranting.) I told my boss I wasn't going to tolerate it and things kind of went downhill from there.

Long story short, after a chat with my boss yesterday, at his request (both she and I having to meet in the middle--me not to take things so personally and she to tone it down), I emailed her and sorted things out, told her how hurt and angry I had been, that Annie had died the next day, etc.

So we have a peace on that, I guess, and are moving forward, new start, blah blah.

But I can tell you that hate it here. I'm right in the middle of the suite, people coming and going, more open than I was. I hate, absolutely detest being part of this group--a large part of the reason I've stayed so long has been the dynamic in our small original group. Not always great, ups and downs like any group together for a long time. But miles above this. I sure as hell haven't stayed for the work itself. (The main reason I've stayed, of course, is that I have to support myself and need a full time job with decent pay, benefits and pension.)

My knee jerk reaction is that it's time to pack up and go, but I'm telling myself to take a deep breath, calm down, and see what happens. While keeping an eye on other positions both here on campus and at our local college. I feel that at my age, with my lack of university degree, my options are pretty limited. 

Some days I just don't want to be the adult, you know? Some days I just want to lay it all down and have someone else pick up the slack.

Too bad Dad, who was in the U.S. yesterday for gas and beer, hadn't thought to pick up a Powerball ticket. He'd at least have had a chance. I heard two tickets won, not sure how many ticket-holders for each ticket. It'll be a Merry Christmas for them, I think.

Hey, I have chocolate in my desk, though. Dark chocolate. Time for a pick-me-up!

I hope you have something to give you a boost today.

Purrs from the boys and peace from me.