Thankful for the Small Things
Morning sky on Tuesday
It's another slog through the work week for me. I confess that my mood hasn't been the best since the spring. I've been consistently crabby and sometimes quite low, which isn't like me. (A few days now and then, yes, but every single day--no.) I've worked hard over the past several years to consciously alter my mindset, given my past history with depression, but I feel I've back-slid over the past few months. I suspect it's a combination of factors:
- All the work changes (change of direct boss and all that comes with it, change of top boss, a new assistant director for our sub-unit who starts on September 4th, etc.)
- The lack of walking since the spring, because of the plantar fasciitis (both feet)--walking is my mental therapy and I miss it greatly, never mind all the extra weight I've gained on top of my already overweight middle-aged body.
- The up and down middle-aged hormones--the hormonal impact on mood is tremendous, no one ever will be able to convince me otherwise.
- The almost-unrelenting excessive, oppressive heat and humidity for months now. Sure, we get hot spells in the summer, but not like this. We have a break today and tomorrow, but then it's back into temps that feel like they're close to 100F with that humidex factor. It's nuts, heading into September, to have this kind of weather.
Resident work courtyard bunny on Monday
All that said, I've been making an extra effort to appreciate the small things in my day, have been jotting them down in the evenings, along with my "accomplishments" for the day. It helps, to be able to flip back and focus on the things I perceive as good, on the things that feed my soul.
Waning moon on Wednesday morning
This is the first August since I've had digital cameras that I've taken so few pics, that I've not been out "sight-seeing" around the city, taking snapshots. (The heat plus the foot issues being the reasons.) So any chance to take a quick pic of something that catches my eye has been welcome!
Last night's sunset from an upstairs window
Someone in our complex saw me a few days ago, snapping sunrise pics on the way to the bus stop. He asked if it was a passion of mine, and I was very offhand in my reply, said oh, I just like taking snapshots for myself (which obviously is the case). Afterward it occurred to me that it is a passion, being able to take nature (and critter) pics. It doesn't matter that I have chosen not to have a DSLR, I absolutely love trying to capture something that appeals to me. It doesn't matter that I have no interest in taking it further, I do it for myself and it feeds my soul. One of the many small (not-so-small to me) things for which I'm very thankful.
Cute little chippie this morning, outside our building
I truly hope that you have something that feeds your soul too; something, however small, for which you're thankful. :-)
Peace.




Comments
I'm trying to find the joys in daily life; it's really been a struggle these past 3-4 months. Of course, that's when it's most important to make the effort!
This has been a long summer. The heat and humidity has been awful. I am really looking forward to the cooler weather.
When I get to feeling down I remember my two cousins who died so young and a friend I grew up with who passed away the day after my dad died nine years ago. They would love to be able to be scrubbing floors or cutting the grass or watching the sunset. I must be grateful for everything in my life. And that includes YOU Kim!❤️❤️
Thanks for stopping by!
Yes, many don't have the opportunity to "slog" through the days and it's well worth remembering that.
BTW, I'm impressed Blogger let you leave a comment!
you really should submit your work to the likes of a photography magazine, etc !!!!! :) ♥♥
hope N & d are stayin in trubullz ~~~~~ sew sayeth de trouterz
As for N & D, I'm not letting them read that comment from the tabbies! :-P
I didn't realize that the fasciitis is giving you such grief. That sucks! Is there any treatment or does it eventually heal on its own?
Not saying this is where you're at, but I do know when I was working through menopause (hormone free) there were definite times when I had difficult managing my emotions. With me it was rage - and it manifested itself with a frequently raised third finger, often at fellow drivers. At work I'd hold it back and head into a bathroom stall to have my mini-meltdown. I hope whatever the cause you'll soon be feeling less stress.
Take care!
Eileen
I remember when I was living in Texas, I would be so jealous of your summer weather. I'm surprised it's been so hot there for so long. I hope as we get into September, it will finally cool down but not too much!
I hope you're feeling better, healing well!
Lots of options re: the plantar fasciitis, with tons of conflicting info out there even from therapists. Mostly it takes a long time and regular gentle stretching, taking it easy, etc.
Oh, the rage! I know all about the rage. LOL. I'm glad I'm not the only one who has experienced it (in my case continues to). Eventually it will end...it's just the getting there!
Yeah, those hormones...eventually they'll level off, but it's the getting through to the other side part that's challenging! :-D
So this weekend I am going to try and do a couple of nice things for myself. I am going to go for a walk tomorrow and meet a friend for lunch. I need a lotto ticket, and some nice treats and then I am going to plonk myself down on the couch and watch a movie and sleep in.
Wishing you a nice weekend too. Pat the boys for me.
Julie and Poppy Q
You, especially, have an exhausting schedule. At least I have regular hours and work only Monday through Friday. That's pretty easy, but I feel worn down by the lack of sleep and early rising, to catch the 6:40 AM bus. I guess decades of that takes its toll!
Have a wonderful weekend of self-care!
And yes, I'm VERY glad I have air now. It totally was worth the expense!
Oh and accomplishments...I count mine exactly the way you do yours I see. Go, us!
I too want to comment, and encourage your photography passion. As a (semi) professional photographer I want to tell you that you have a great eye, and do an awesome job, in spite of the fact that you are NOT using a DSLR 😹. My favorite things to photograph are animals, pets and nature....so we have much in common. I am in the midst of starting up my own pet photography business. I’ve been taking pictures for about 40 years...and the reason I tell you all this is so that you hear me when I say....you ARE a photographer ! I think we are born with the compulsion to try to capture the beauty we see around us. You are doing a stand up job of it !!
I am also a hot, crabby mess when the humidity is high 😓😫😓😫....I live in SE MI, I’m pretty sure our weather is very similar... I envy you your CA, we don’t have it ( yet )... it will be about $10,000 USD to get it installed...so, I hate Summer when it turns humid. It’s important to take care of ourselves, and I think as women we tend to put ourselves last...we don’t make ourselves, and our happiness a priority. So, do what makes you happy at the moment. Snapping pictures, cuddling N & D, thrift store shopping, blogging....and know that you have a friend in SE MI, looking forward to cooler weather, right along with you !
I would just love to send you one of my Chicks who Click (hot pink) rubber wristbands ! I’m the admin for the same named FB group, which you’re welcome to join if you’re on FB. It’s for women photographers only, a place to learn, encourage & grow.
As soon as I figure out how to upload photos to my blog, you’ll be able to see some of my work. I do have a FB page for my photography....All my Relations Photography is it’s name, if you care to check out some of my stuff...
Have a great weekend, and stay cool my friend ! 😓
Beth Ann 😺
Thanks so much for your comment--I appreciate your words of encouragement! Yes, I would say that taking pics is, for me, a compulsion. I find that when I do, I'm in the Present Moment, when my small ego falls away and I'm fully engaged. It's one of the few things I do wherein that happens.
$10K USD is a lot for central air! I guess it depends on the size of your home and if they have to tear out ceilings or walls to do it. I was lucky, my basement is unfinished and they were able to easily access the old duct-work to remove it and move/replace it with up-to-code ducts. I'd had the furnace replaced at the same time (better deal) and it ran me between $8K - $9K for both, after all the rebates. (At the time there was an Ontario government rebate for "green" house renos, but the new ON government has cancelled that.) I also went mid-line with the products, because I couldn't afford top line.
The FB group sounds great! Alas, I deleted my FB account last month. I hadn't been on it in a long time (no patience for all the "garbage" on it), and that, coupled with all the privacy issues, made the decision to delete the account very easy. I'm not on Instagram either, or any other social media, and prefer not to be. However, I'd love to see your photography, so do feel free to leave your blog link--if it's via Blogger, it's easy enough to post your pics, but I don't know about other blogs, Wordpress for example.
You have a great weekend too (nice that both Canada and the US have an extra day, Labour Day). And thank you again for your kind words. :-)
Happy Labour Day! Enjoy the long weekend, dear friend!
Enjoy the extra day off -- at least, I presume you have Labour Day off.